This little light of mine.

I think I should rename my blog to This little light of mine. Remember that song?
This little light of mine,
I'm gonna let it shine.
This little light of mine,
I'm gonna let it shine.
This little light of mine,
I'm gonna let it shine, let it shine, let it shine, let it shine.

God is so good, I just can't contain myself. Even in my darkest times God makes a way.

The other day, I was telling you that my checking account was low to say the least. I could see no way out. I had spent so much on the children that was not in my budget. But it was in God's budget.

I have to remind you of my Selfish nature, and how me and God are working on that. Everytime I whipped out my debit card, I would cringe, but my prayer would be thanking God for the ability to even pay for things.

Let me preface this by saying, I have not spoken to my ex in at least a year. He has since remarried, and I don't bother him. I send Christmas cards - should send Fathers day because he was a wonderful father. An answer to my mothers prayers. He was a little "too stable" for me, I wanted a bad boy.

Well, I called my ex, about "his daughter" - you know how that is, when she is tripping, she's his daughter. I know that she calls her dad, and I wanted him to know what was going on.

I told him about her taking the kids from my house to a homeless shelter, about the drinking, neglect, and just poor decision making. I told him about the kids, how their clothes didn't fit, and the 3 boys had no underwear, and that I had just bought them some clothes. I didn't tell him how much, or complain about it. I have been buying for these kids for years.

Maybe he can talk some sense into her. She loves her daddy.

About an hour after we hung up, he sent me a text message saying that he had deposited money in my account (he has had my account number for years).

I was driving when I got the text. I had to pull over right then and thanked the Lord. He deposited exactly what I had spent! No more - No less.

I have been made whole.

Dear God, its me Judy, again.
THANK YOU! For some crazy reason, I am always surprised when You come through. I know in my heart that You will take care of me. You said it and You always do. But I worry needlessly anyway. One of these days, I will be able to just put it in Your hands and go on about my business. Thats why I am glad you compelled me to create this blog. So I can write it down, and then see You in action. Now others will do the same. This blog is This little light of mine. Thank You for touching my ex's heart. I know that he is saved and You speak to him as well. Thank You for looking past my selfishness, and proving again that if I take one step You will take two. Thank You for covering the children, their mother and me, I pray for Your continued protection.

I need You again. You gave me this business and I need your blessing. I need to sell at least 32 seats on this bus for the Chicago trip. You also know the problems with the Depot account. Lord, help me solve the problems and make that right. You have shown me that the problems were there before you even gave me the account. You have shown me that You gave me the account. You made that account extremely successful. I know You will not fail me. Just continue to give me the guidance to make it right. I need insurance for my little bus. Lord direct me to the right insurance agent. After speaking with KT yesterday, I sensed You speaking through her, Lord please make it clear, do You want me to bring her onboard to manage that division?

Everyday, as I grow closer to You, my steps are tentative. As the song says:

Order my steps in your word dear lord
Lead me, guide me everyday
Send your annointing father I pray
Order my steps in your word please order my steps in your word
Humbly I asked thee teach me your will
While you are working help me be still
Satan is busy God is real Order my steps in your word
Please order my steps in your word

Thank You for being an Awesome God, a loving Father, and a wonderful Friend. In your precious Son's Jesus Christ Name.
Amen.

Update on daughter and kids. They stopped by to pick up more stuff yesterday. I wasn't here but Papa was. Apparently her new boyfriend is also with them in the homeless shelter.

God loosened his tongue, because Papa said he just started talking. He said his mother is an Evangelist and she works with community social agencies and referred them to the shelter. He says its really nice even with a playground. He and my daughter have to attend classes (hopefully parenting and substance abuse) and they will help them get a home.

I have put this in God's hand, and I will be still. My heart feels a little better. Lord knows I have a lot of other things to do. So I will focus on that until God tells me to move.

To you I say, if you do not believe in God, just keep coming back. If you are reading this, He sent you to read it. Think about where you are in your life and where you want to be. God gave me my daughter, my grandchildren, Papa, a business, a home and a story. I hope by sharing my story, it will touch your heart and give you encouragement to keep on keeping on.

This little light of mine, I'm gonna let it shine, let it shine, let it shine, let it shine.
Judy